Whenever I measure myself, I suffer internal conflict that I should do this and should do that. I beat myself to be 1% better everyday and should be doing this instead of what I am doing right now. Not only does this not work, its causes self-conflict. There is no progress bar in nature. There is no progression in nature. Everything operates according to its own rhythm. If something needed to be done, it just needs to be done now. There is no waiting. Even when I train up for gym and benchmark myself. What is there to benchmark for? What are these amounts? What distinguishes between something good and something bad. What am I even training for?
For others it’s a certain goal. It’s a certain destination. Everything about measurement isn’t conclusive with reality. There’s nothing wrong with any of this. I guess the only questions that matter are where you want to go and are you there yet?
Self-improvement is another form of self-conflict. If I’m not enough today, I need to improve to become better tomorrow. What if I am perfect the way I am right now? Why do I even need to or want to improve? Is this even getting me anywhere but a good feeling? If I’m not enough today how can I find it tomorrow?
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