I’ve always been fascinated by waves. Growing up I went to the beach constantly and had the sun and swell as a constant companion. From my own experiences, waves are metaphors for life. The waves keep coming and there’s no stopping them. They come during the day and all throughout the night. This is due…
Judgement
The biggest reflexive and automatic response in my life is my tendency to judge. Judge how the cashier forgot and took too long to get my iced coffee. Judge how attractive or ugly that woman walking opposite me on the street is. Judge how good or bad that friend is for not replying to my…
Excellence and Entertainment
Yesterday I went out salsa dancing at the usual social venue. This time instead of only the regulars, there were professional dancers who visited the social due to the upcoming dance festival. From last night my observations were as follows. A side quote from Marcus Aurelius which really stuck with me which relates to my…
Devotion
If I am not serious about something, I will not get the results I desire. Everything of value requires some sort of seriousness and devotion to the pursuit. If the serious or devotion are not there, then we as human beings will be distracted by the bells and whistles of the world. This world…
Self-measurement and self-improvement
Whenever I measure myself, I suffer internal conflict that I should do this and should do that. I beat myself to be 1% better everyday and should be doing this instead of what I am doing right now. Not only does this not work, its causes self-conflict. There is no progress bar in nature. There…
Reactions
From experimentation of the mind, I’ve realized that the less reactions and judgements I have of the people around me and the events which happen, the more at peace I become. I keep reacting instinctively to everything around me, through years of autopilot that I am ripped about due to desire. Reactions of the mind…
Hopelessness
There is no doubt in my mind that hopelessness is the only way for a blissful life. There is nothing out there and no event out there which I hope to come true which would turn out the way I feel. I see very clearly that the only way to a happy life would be…
Changing People
The hardest lesson I have learnt transitioning from early to late twenties is the lesson of changing people. People are rapidly changing from when they are born until their early childhood. From early childhood, their fundamental personality will always remain the same more or less. Potentially if a life changing experience or tragedy strikes, then…
The Only Way
The only way for inner peace is to let go for the I. To let go of the ego. The ego is the source of my emotional turmoil. The ego is the source of my anxiety, loneliness, suffering and anger. What anyone does or says to me shouldn’t affect me. Its my response and my…
My Gut Feeling
It appears that my gut has been very correct in the sensing of danger and what the people I need to avoid. My gut appears to detect situations and people which are bad for me. It appears that due to some unknown force, the gut provides an physical response due to the feelings that arise….